Travelling with 2 children to the blessed land with zauji is indeed one of the greatest blessing in my entire life. It’s been 24hrs + of travel mashaAllah. The little girl just turned 2 too. And that itself is a whole new phase that I am still learning to be more understanding about and to assist her in her transition. Ya Rabb, guide us.
The 4 year old has been a joy to travel with and that phrase of “this too shall pass” came by too quickly. I used to think that hey how do I travel with the firstborn? Prepping so much physically to have it drained internally trying to keep things afloat with a fussy (but healthy alhamdulillah) baby travelling with you. Today, he is so much more independent and already joining the abang-abang group that I miss my baby boy so much. Allahumma baarik and alhamdulillah for growth.
There are times where my sabr gets tested and zauj would nudge me by reminding how much I prayed for these 2 innocent souls. I love them to bits.
Anyway, this spiritual journey which coincides with our 5 years of marriage, Allahumma baarik, is much needed. I may not have fully internalised it. But every waking hour is a reminder to renew my intentions and try to be closer to Allah in everything that I do. Like going back to the hotel with 2 toddlers while zauj got the opportunity to get first dibs at Nabawi Mosque. I wanted to go too but I know that the children (and mother) need to rest and there is always tomorrow, inshaAllah. Taking care of these amanah is ibadah too. May I get to balance between wanting to push on and strive, and pulling back when needed.
Till the next post,
the one who is in love with Medina’s weather
Diarinsyirah 