Pause.

Is this what numbness feels like?

I’m honestly at my wits end trying to figure you. When I constantly try to be there but the other party refuses to see it. It’s a sad and lonely feeling. I know Prophet Nuh a.s preached for more than 900 years. But I’m Fatihatul Insyirah and I don’t have that long a life. It’s emotionally taxing to care for something that a person clearly does not care about. It gets super frustrating to keep trying to peep, climb over and knock on the walls that surround you. It is a personal journey, yes, only to some extent. It is, at the end of the day, how and who you choose to invest your heart in. But it is equally social as the very essence of this whole thing is meant to be building blocks to a stronger and better future. I’ve told myself not to care. But I still do. Oh God I really do. For that, I won’t give up on you. But for now, I shall take a step back. May Allah guide us for I want nothing but the best for those I love.