Alhamdulillah, it’s day 2 of this jogja immersion trip. It has been one with many lessons. Sometimes in the form of challenges that tests one of her patience and at times, testing her level of gratitude. I hope I will remember that it will always be either one (patience/gratitude) for a believer and she should always navigate between the 2 at all times.
It’s amazing as another team of students from my school are also having an immersion programme but under this exchange agreement between us and University Gadja Mada – which I applied twice but was not granted. It is a very good opportunity as one is able to clear 1 module, pass/fail, within 2 weeks! But Allah knows that I needed another form of immersion to the same city I wanted to go so badly before. Allah is, truly, amazing. ❤
This trip is essentially designed to help students experience the environment of working in a startup, in an emerging market such as Indonesia. A short internship, if I may casually define it.
I finally saw how wonderful His plans are. I mean, I’m sure there are many more lessons to be uncovered. But what stood out most, thus far, relates directly to the recent rejection email I received moments after my final paper. It was timely, to be honest. MashaAllah. At least it came after my papers right? So that the ache would not shift one’s focus during the exam period. Allah is indeed merciful.
A rejection that I deemed uncalculated, unfair even, (astaghfirullah – may God forgive me) as this ungrateful being thought she covered all bases upon application of that “dream” job.
But she forgets that it is a 3 word equation.
Do – Doa – Tawakkal
I was so…confident about the prospect of getting the job since I have relevant experience that prior to this. With a string of recommendations from direct supervisor to the encouragement from the director of the department herself, I thought I had it all.
But I forgot. I forgot that tawakkal involves leaving our affairs by trusting Allah, accepting both outcomes, regardless.
Tawakkal means that even if your efforts seems foolproof, if it is not meant to be, it will never reach you. Tawakkal bears the feelings of hope, tranquility and patience. Tawakkal is, above all, your level of trust to the Best of Planners ❤
Ya Allah, I don’t know what is in store for me. But what I do know is that I need to keep working for it. I need to keep an open heart and accept the path and continue to tread on it.
Today, a senior UX designer who works remotely for the company reminded us during the company dinner just this.
He studied English Literature and could not get a job for 2 years. But he persevered, 200 applications and many self-learnt skills later, found his passion in IT, knew what jobs he did NOT want and Allah led him to where he is today.
After day 1 in the office today, I know I do not want mundane jobs which forces one to sit behind a laptop. I need human interaction. Thus with this knowledge, I hope to slowly sieve my way through life by filtering what I consider “mundane” jobs.
Sure I’m still clueless – but at least this is one step closer to finding the “ideal” match. You filter those you do not want. A similar approach goes behind finding a future spouse. (tbh reminded me this. thank you)
You may have a checklist of an ideal partner, but with so many out there, you cannot afford to waste your time by confining and waiting for all boxes to be checked. Hence filtering really helps! And I’m ever thankful for having to never settle for anything less and looking beyond a checklist. Know what you do not want in a potential partner and the rest will come naturally to you, allowing you to be open to options inshaAllah. I am thankful for this part of life which was so vague but so clear now. So for rezeki, like what wise people have mentioned and reminded me, is to keep our options open and continue the search while being strict on what you do not want – have a standard and preference in determining our life choices but always be receptive of the guidance Allah showered on us and the outcome that He brings us to.
Day 2 of “internship”, lesgo! Bismillah
Prayers for each other inshaAllah ❤
Diarinsyirah 