Recently, I felt quite down due to such a trivial reason. Dear heart, please learn to focus your energy and passion on things that really really matter now. The ordeal was so unimportant and has no basis. And to think of it, that my dear heart should not have any worry because it has no rights over whatever and whoever that it was worried about.
But this little test was timely. It came after I attended a wonderful event – HER Forum by Nisaa of NUS. You know how when you try to commit to something? Or when you preach about a thing and the next thing you know, Allah will test you on it. Allah was indeed testing how much I truly believe in Sister Jinghan’s sharing about the Self. (The entire sharing will be written in due time on a separate post InshaAllah. I owe it to Syafiqah Samsudin and Arina! I’m so so sorry dear sisters that my post is not up yet ><)
Anyway, I managed to pick myself up. All praises be to Allah and only Allah alone. I started to reflect on Sis Jinghan’s sharing and took the opportunity to focus on my mini presentation yesterday.
Yesterday, we had MABIT (a wasail tarbiyah) at a petite but cosy mosque, Omar Kampong Melaka. Being amongst beautiful souls in a place of worship gave me the happy thoughts and happy place feels. It reminded me to be grateful for such an opportunity to be gaining and reminding each other about the deen. (Another post on the content of MABIT coming up too inshaAllah! We discussed on the book “What Does it Mean to be a Muslim?” by Sheikh Fathi Yakan. Truly an inspiring book where it emphasizes on being a muslim as a CHOICE.)
Highlight of the day has got to be Godsent Syafiqah. Habiibah asked if I could lead 1 set of tahajjud and I said yes because…why not? I chose to recite Surah Nuh because
1) I can still remember it alhamdulillah. (Please make prayers for yours truly to be consistent in murajaah. Itssooohard)
2) I resonate so deeply with the surah now. It highlights the thoughts of Prophet Nuh a.s who did dakwah for more than 900 years. He did the direct and indirect approach but to no avail. His patience is something I aspire to emulate inshaAllah. And super love the last verse where he made prayer for his parents and all muslims. ❤
So anyway, happiness is when I suddenly forgot what’s the next verse until Syafiqah came to the rescue. I can’t describe the feeling well but it felt wholesome. As if a hero just came to my rescue ❤ ❤ ❤
May we continue to save each other forever aameen!
So dear self, whenever you are at your low, remember to stay thankful. Sis Jinghan mentioned how if we’re occupied with counting Allah’s blessings, we would not have time and would not dare to question and complain.
In other words: “Everything that happens is the best that may ever happen.” (Senpai’s Instagram, 2018)
Be in a constant state of alhamdulillah. When you’re feeling blessed, there will be no room for stress. Happy thoughts always ok! May this post bring only wonderful memories to me and act as a reminder in times of need.
Stay blessed Singapore. Happiest birthday to you. ❤
Diarinsyirah 